must know something.
Human beings are weak and insignificant. They are also easy to understand the whole ... Yet it is difficult to live as such.
I viscerally hate the human race, if purulent and devastating, so arrogant and vindictive, so disappointing and daunting ... This race to which I belong. Knowing full well that the game is unwinnable and As we begin a dance for centuries on the brink, my life is attached. Trying to ignore my fears, my emotions and my human impulses in constant path to improvement. Towards a better understanding of my mistakes, to optimize my success. I try to get as high as possible. Or at least try to convince myself.
For at every step, every step, I am brought back to earth by the reactions that characterize unstable and pathetic my humanity. These reactions lead to sexual desire, by hatred towards myself and others, frustration Devouring me gnawing bones.
I realized something strange recently and while this revelation meets much discussion, it not only raises in others but I will also be required to take a decision. I could be "honest" and tell him everything, she could only admit it? Will she understand? And she will be receptive to my feelings? I think already know the answer but I want to hear it anyway. This probably calm me ... But all that keeps me away from the True Path. There are more important goals to accomplish in life right? I Response not yet unfortunately.
I belong to no community, no social group, any group of thought ... and so much more! I have a distaste for more pronounced for the communities to which people say they belong. The worst is that if one is not part of their "sect", the decision is automatic and it is impossible to approach or be of interest ... A new form of fascism? Yes and no.
Yes advocating for a movement of thought and have specific obedient and docile followers, followers willing to convert others and to reject those who are different ... This is tendentious.
No because obviously it is not a movement but a micro-state phenomenon on a small number of individuals within a society.
is unfortunate because our world has a lot of barriers, be it language, religion and borders ... Having to fit into a movement, even putting aside the fundamental aspects of his personality for the better feel part of a group. This applies to all ages, across social, musical or-else I know ...
Personally it bothers me because I could meet more people (by people I mean "women" of course let us not be fooled ^ ^) boring without this parameter. Of course being swarthy does not help matters much to the contrary but I'm not complaining and it is a normal phenomenon in this country, people with my mug are outnumbered more likely to fear and questions ... But it's something I feel very strongly once out of the middle says "geek" (I abhor more, but this term is good practice to map.) The clichés die hard! And some groups are really too closed, it's a shame ....
The problem is vast and complex. Trying to explain it would be a waste of time and it certainly does not solve the issue.
must know something.
I am a weak and insignificant. But with the consciousness of this fact, I can live with no problem. Torn between a desire for unattainable perfection and want a simple life without constraints, I can not find my Way. I could not find probably never but I never stop looking.
I will continue to hate and love.
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